That said, I’m sure everyone’s been wondering about the downtimes lately and if it’s going to continue, what happened and how it was fixed.

Three days ago, a weekly maintenance process that typically backs up the entire server before performing regular maintenance was running at the time. I’d checked it before I went to bed, because typically prior to the recent downtime, it’d handle the database this forum uses without issue… at least, for a while longer.

The thing is, Karusune, Kradorex and myself knew that there’d be a time where the SQL would just crap itself and die. We didn’t know when, but we knew it was coming. We tried to encourage holy to clean up the forums, remove tMS posts and the like… many things that could’ve been done to keep the forum going.

No longer is this the case. Doujinstyle is now officially on its own. Karusune is gone. I am leaving next. Kradorex will probably leave shortly after as well.

The backbone of this community’s pretty much gone. We were here for the community, we had the solution and we would’ve executed said solution, after I worked for more than 5 hours in the first day, fixing the SQL and returning it back to a usable state and giving Karusune and Kradorex the time to go through it and make further recommendations on how to handle this issue.

Until last night, when holy decided to do it himself, because it was “ez”. He asked for details. I told him he could find it in his e-mail.

Sometime after that, he PMed me in IRC, letting me know it was done. Out of curiosity, I decided to check the database and saw that no, it had not been done.

All he did was tell IPB to put the posts in a trash bin, but not clear it out.

I decided then and there to withdraw official support from EidolonHost from Doujinstyle; this has the effect of leaving Doujinstyle on its own, with no technical support aside from Kradorex. I won’t speak for Kradorex, so I’ll leave that up to him.

Why bother offering support if a website owner is just not going to listen? Far better to just host the site and not handle support for said site.

We are done trying to get holy to understand it is not that “ez”. That DS’s forums has gone through several forum updates/upgrades. That there was better than 90% chances of issues being encountered when holy simply deleted the posts but didn’t clear it out.

The point was, we had a plan. and holy basically told us fuck you.

He probably didn’t mean it that way. Does that matter? No, not really, not anymore. Not after seeing holy treat Karusune like he did last night when holy asked Karusune to let him discuss the situation with him.

I still have the records. I cannot honestly remember ever seeing Karusune that truly angry.

Is there an alternative? Naturally, there is! Visit Scattered Horizon Forums where most, if not all of the DS community seems to be migrating to. I’ll admit, I’m hyping this up because this is where Karusune and I have decided to create, as a way to provide the community with a relaxed environment where things are run well, where we know what we’re talking about and how to get stuff done – in a way that makes it so much more fun to be around others without worrying about whether or not the site’s about to go down because of owner issues.

You can still contact me via all of the methods in my profile – but I’ll show it here:
YIM: shatteredtearsnoc@yahoo.com
MSN: shatteredtearsnoc@live.com
AIM: KeiroDreamwalker
E-mail: admin@shattered-tears.com
Webchat: ShatteredTears Webchat
Steam: LitomoSilver
Skype: LitomoSilver

Just let me know who you are, please.

So… with that said, I bid all of you a warm goodbye.

For the fuck of it, of course.

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Uh… hm. Actually, I don’t know. o.ò

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Wait, there’re resolutions? o.ò Well, if I must make one, it’s at least this: Complete the server ownership, gather funds up and head to Florida to be with L.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

… No. And if they did, depending on the person, I may shoot the person. e.e

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No.

5. What countries did you visit?

Mexico. Enough said.

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

To be with my lover. That, and to see my business succeed.

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Not particularly specific dates… but roughly around September or so… I was living with a friend of mine and her boyfriend, and got royally fucked over by said boyfriend, known permanently as thing, and being put through so much psychological trauma, I will never forget the fact that I was forced to go through several different things in order to escape. This was back in New Jersey. So… yeah. :V

That’s the worst.

The brightest is meeting L, and eventually becoming her Lover, then learning more about myself and her than I did before. As to what I mean by that… I’ll leave it to your imaginations.

o8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Um… achievements? I’m not sure, to be honest. I need to think about that. >_>

9. What was your biggest failure?

Making decisions that turn out to fuck me over royally later.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Yes. Naturally, who doesn’t?

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Probably my server.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Um. I… I actually don’t know?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Certain roommates currently. And other people that don’t bother taking into consideration your needs.

14. Where did most of your money go?

The server. That’s where. :/

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Meeting my lover again. Oh yes, meeting L will be exciting! That, and the fact that I’m so close to completing my server ownership.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

I’m going to borrow a friend of mine’s comment, “Oh fucksticks, I don’t know!” as that describes my answer to this question perfectly.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder?

Definitely sadder. But also happy, because I soon will be with my lover.

ii. thinner or fatter?

Somewhat fatter. Not much, thankfully. BUT IT IS THERE, ARGH! D:

iii. richer or poorer?

Er… poorer, right now. At least, temporarily. Which is a good thing. :O

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Sleeping, that’s certain. Oh, and gaming.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Searching for jobs. What’s the fucking point? Seriously, what point is there? I’ve done far better in having made my own company. Fuck you, job economy.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

Sleep. No, seriously, I slept. And spoke with my lover, L.

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

Damn straight I did. :O

22. Did you break any hearts?

Yes… I believe I have.

23. How many one-night stands?

None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?

I don’t watch TV. :/

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Thing. Definitely hate the bastard with an unholy passion.

26. What was the best book you read?

Wheel of Time series. Latest book would be Towers of Midnight.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Aoife Ni Fhearrigh. The maker of The Best is Yet to Come, in MGS4.

28. What did you want and get?

A server. I wanted one. And got it. With my money, too!

29. What did you want and not get?

A way to teleport. Barring that, a cheap plane ticket to Florida, for sure. :/

30. What was your favorite film of 2010?

Er… hm. Favorite film… that’s kinda hard, actually, because I don’t remember any specific movies, per se… but if pressed, I’d probably say Metal Gear Solid: Philanthropy. (Fan-made, not an actual movie by Kojima Productions.)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I’ve yet to get to my birthday. It’s on the 31st. I’ll post back here once that happens. >_>; I’ll be 23 then.

32. What is one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Having L here. Or me being there. Either one. I don’t particularly care, really, so long as I’m THERE. Or she’s with me HERE.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

Again, borrowing the statement from my friend, “What fashion?”

34. What kept you sane?

Books. And my lover, L. ^^

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I don’t fancy celebrity/public figures, sorry.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

DADT, otherwise known as Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, and the healthcare reform, known as Obamacare.

37. Who did you miss?

My lover, L. That’s who I miss. And strangely… myself. At least, the younger version of myself. Does that make sense?

38. Who was the best new person you met?

My lover, L. No questions about it.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:

Again, using the words of my friend, “No matter how much shit you think life is throwing at you, it can always throw more. Without fail. ALWAYS.”

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

You know, Life is simple

Because… the best thing in life is yet to come

Normally, this time of the year, it’s a celebration, of death and rebirth. But personally, I’ve not really enjoyed Christmas, due to the simple fact that I don’t really have anyone to celebrate with. Not being in a relationship sucks, but I deal with it. Hopefully, if all goes well next year, I may be in one.

I often wonder how those of us who don’t have anyone spend their Christmas. How do you spend yours?

As for me, I’ll be spending my time ensuring customers get the best service possible from EidolonHost, the company that I own.

It is nearing Christmas. Perhaps I will do something for my clients as a way of saying thank you. I’m not entirely sure what, but I’ll think of something.

Ideas?

I didn’t think I’d ever meet an old friend of mine that I met on an IRC network, called Bondage.com. (Yes, I go to said network. No, it’s not because of what you think.)

I’d seen the nickname that my friend used to use, and thought it familiar for some reason. I didn’t know why, until my friend asked me, “Do I know you?” to which I said no, and asked why.

Her response? “I’m raina”.

I fell off the chair in shock, because I hadn’t expected to meet her, of all places in the channel where another friend of mine asked me to visit, because of that friend’s friend needing help with a bot.

I can’t help but be surprised… and pleased that this time around, the surprise is a pleasant one. And this reminds me so much of my poetry that I wrote, which is called Hello and Goodbye. I feel as if this poetry that I wrote applies almost perfectly to this reunion. Not in a bittersweet way, but more in that I remember our memories that I spent time with her, pleasantly and warmly that brings smiles to my face… and I hope the same to hers.

And of course… the whole point of this post was that you should expect the unexpected, especially with friends that you keep meeting again.

Apologies for the rambling post… Oh wait, no I’m not.

This can be easily seen when I’m compiling the IRCd, the server that hosts every person on IRC. Or attempting to rewrite Kaiya, to varying degrees of success. Occasionally, during upgrade times, I will freak out, because I’ve screwed up something, or did something to break the compilation.

Usually, after the issues are fixed, the ST-IRC Administration will laugh at me and tell me to quit breaking stuff.

I do enjoy running ST-IRC, though at times I feel as if something is missing. I don’t know exactly, what. But I do know that at the very least, ShatteredTears has established its identity of being an organization that helps its users. This, I think, is pretty much undisputed.

Right now though, there’s the risk that I turn the organization in the wrong direction, so at the moment, I’m considering exactly what else, is needed.

If you’ve any ideas, suggestions or thoughts, I’d appreciate hearing them.

Anyways, on to the reason why I’m posting this.

I am currently writing a story, called The Setting Sun by moi. Starting it is a bit of a problem, as all good stories tend to be, from time to time. Still, I think I made a great start.

It is a story of a man who is fighting for the Light, as a Guardian of the Light, and eventually as the Avatar of the Light. What happens when a Warrior is done.

The Light’s war with the Shadow rages on, The War of the Roses, it was called, by those within and without the war. He is the leader of the Ontrose army, and is gathering his forces for the final battle, and discover when his Sun sets.

Alright, the link to the story’s now up! Read it here.

Keiro